unpersonal

bought myself a new lip balm after losing it in aussie. Was actually doing fine without it (for 1month++) (i.e. no chapped lips) cos i was trying to drink enough water and have a healthy lifestyle..LOL. But..been trying to study, so i kinda forgets to drink water, and my lips gets really dry :(. sigh. spend money again.. at least my lip's soft and it doesn't hurt anymore.. now i have to remind myself to drink water. :( im so dehydrated! :(

my phone had a case of the pixel dying, so if i were to fix my phone it would cost rm180! :( and i refused to spend any more money on gadgets!!!! i refuse!! So i would not spend unless, i find myself unable to read msgs or call, then i would. :(

sigh, it hits on me, how unpersonal this blog had become. no more was it a place for me to rant and be me.. it amazes me, how much i am actually keeping inside, i have no idea how would i be when it's finally become too much for me. ah well. life still goes on. if i do break down, i just have to pick myself up again, i guess. hell, im just 21, i think i can handle the world still.. haha.

and my toe's so much better now, though u'll still hear the "fuck me hard" quotes when i bang my toe on everything around quite often. :'(

i miss home. and i hate my bank account now. its so empty! :( sobs.

there is so many :( in this post, that i don't think u need any guessing on how i am feeling right? :(