now :)
boo yah..
just had some free time, so i thought heck why not, might as well write something, before i become too distracted. hehe, what can i do, short attention span.
anyway, one of my roommates moved out this morning, last night something epic happened, and it was one hell of an argument, the newly moved out exroommate got bombed by my other roommate! FUh.. i had to hold my desire of jumping out of the bed (cos i was supposedly already asleep, i actually woke up due to the noise) and i had to hold my breath from laughing at what the other roommate said to the exroommate, freakin bombed her to smithereens! lol. and how did i manage to communicate with my sister? i text messaged her even though she's like 1metre away from me! haha...
now i think failing one unit is really a blessing in disguise, :) i get to learn so many things this semester, well not in regards to education but in regards to life... maybe i had to learn it the hard way or maybe the Big Guy above, loves me enough to impart this experience for me to learn and well ithink i did quite well.. maybe except for the procrastinating part..
i wasn't ashamed that i failed one unit, i was more bummed out that i can't graduate, but it is a good thing now, at least i didn't have to go thru the 'okay,,i graduated... now what?' period and i didn't have to waste any time in thinking after i graduate cos i am doing 'all the thinking' now... since i'm not graduating just yet. :) and i don't get depressed thinking about all the what if's and what's not cos i've been thru the depression already, and now i guess i can really quote this from Lina, i am really living in the NOW.
of course this is not a one day thing where everything just turned out right, i went thru the depression period, the self-doubt period, where everything just look so bleak, i went thru the "I am useless, i don't deserve to live", i went thru the 'omg, i'm liveless' and i definitely went thru the stage where i think the world is against me, and i am angry at everyone even for the smallest thing but luckily and slowly, i start to learn to heal. and i say it did take quite long.. slowly the heart healed back to one piece, acceptance took over the doubts, and instead of living in the past with the what if's, i started to see today as a present. Give myself new things to do as a challenge, find back my self esteem, build back the strong girl i was before i was crashed down with a label called 'failure', learning to accept who i am, and learning so many things, learning to accept and be happy and i dare say i am happy right now. thanks so much to those who stuck around and most importantly, enjoy one day at a time and really live in the moment instead of living in doubts.. the moment u decide, it's the moment u'll know everything is really gonna be alright. :)
and i know my sister would definitely say that i was a real total bitch during the 'me-against-the-world' period. ;p
just had some free time, so i thought heck why not, might as well write something, before i become too distracted. hehe, what can i do, short attention span.
anyway, one of my roommates moved out this morning, last night something epic happened, and it was one hell of an argument, the newly moved out exroommate got bombed by my other roommate! FUh.. i had to hold my desire of jumping out of the bed (cos i was supposedly already asleep, i actually woke up due to the noise) and i had to hold my breath from laughing at what the other roommate said to the exroommate, freakin bombed her to smithereens! lol. and how did i manage to communicate with my sister? i text messaged her even though she's like 1metre away from me! haha...
now i think failing one unit is really a blessing in disguise, :) i get to learn so many things this semester, well not in regards to education but in regards to life... maybe i had to learn it the hard way or maybe the Big Guy above, loves me enough to impart this experience for me to learn and well ithink i did quite well.. maybe except for the procrastinating part..
i wasn't ashamed that i failed one unit, i was more bummed out that i can't graduate, but it is a good thing now, at least i didn't have to go thru the 'okay,,i graduated... now what?' period and i didn't have to waste any time in thinking after i graduate cos i am doing 'all the thinking' now... since i'm not graduating just yet. :) and i don't get depressed thinking about all the what if's and what's not cos i've been thru the depression already, and now i guess i can really quote this from Lina, i am really living in the NOW.
of course this is not a one day thing where everything just turned out right, i went thru the depression period, the self-doubt period, where everything just look so bleak, i went thru the "I am useless, i don't deserve to live", i went thru the 'omg, i'm liveless' and i definitely went thru the stage where i think the world is against me, and i am angry at everyone even for the smallest thing but luckily and slowly, i start to learn to heal. and i say it did take quite long.. slowly the heart healed back to one piece, acceptance took over the doubts, and instead of living in the past with the what if's, i started to see today as a present. Give myself new things to do as a challenge, find back my self esteem, build back the strong girl i was before i was crashed down with a label called 'failure', learning to accept who i am, and learning so many things, learning to accept and be happy and i dare say i am happy right now. thanks so much to those who stuck around and most importantly, enjoy one day at a time and really live in the moment instead of living in doubts.. the moment u decide, it's the moment u'll know everything is really gonna be alright. :)
and i know my sister would definitely say that i was a real total bitch during the 'me-against-the-world' period. ;p
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and i wanna know what michele scolded ur roomate...tell me when we meet k?