if you dont like it, it's cool, fuck u

today i wondered, why blog?

blog to remember life's highlights and lowlights? but some people's blog are mostly lowlights, means if u read back, won't it brings you down further?

but how to blog bout highlights? all my highlights are so much fun that i forget to take pictures, all i have is the memories, and they sometimes get avalanche-d down by other stupid shits that happened.

i feel ridiculous writing that, its like writing a composition and not knowing how it'll end, doesn't that sound like life?

i don't have answers, and i mostly just have questions, questions that i feel like no one knows and no one even thought about it..

i do get angry quite often, i feel, but most of the time, underneath the anger, it's mostly, if not all disappointment. I've been living with this mantra for over 2years now, if they dont care about me, why the hell should i care about them, and I'm still repeating that. If there is no respect for me, why the hell should i even give a damn about u? ahahaha, there is no use getting angry for those kind of people. so no worries, u can die and i would feel sad, but u wont see me going to your funeral. and then i would go on and enjoy my life.